Stress Relief

Let’s not and say we did.

Do and say we didn’t

Tell secrets and lies.

Hide the truth behind our eyes.

Whisper in corners.

Kiss in darkness.

Succumb to our desires.

Light each other’s fires.

Steal glances across rooms.

Laugh as we consume.

Act less than our age.

Let’s play games.

Let’s tickle and tease.

Please with ease.

Let’s giggle and smirk.

While we’re putting in work.

Commonality

What defines us as human?

Our species?

Evolution?

Who deigned us humans?

How can people so different,

Different races, different ethnicities, different languages,

Always seem to find something in common?

 Pain is universal,

Love, suffering, happiness, anger,

It seems that feeling is above our division.

How else can we be moved by Latin music?

Weep during a foreign film?

Gaze in wonder at ancient artifacts?

Our emotions drive our commonality.

A unit uninterrupted by past or future.

A multiplied presence.

7 billion nerves in a giant body.

Individual cogs in a collective machine.

A Poor Substitute for Happiness

What happens when we search deep in ourselves and find something missing?

Something named, but undefinable.

An indescribable piece of our humanity that causes us to yearn for another.

Love perhaps.

We reach out, pleading with the universe for someone to reach back.

We give, hoping to receive.

And then we attach.

Our souls intertwine hopelessly, helplessly, unbreakably.

And then life intercedes with its misery, its reality, its stupidity.

For how can we give completely, when we never have all of ourselves?

How can we love endlessly, when we don’t truly know what it is?

But we are humans, we are relentless.

Even as we hurt, we stay.

Even when it’s wrong, we stay.

Even as we cry, we stay.

But the need is never filled because the love we find lacks the truth we require.

True love does not lie, we do.

True love does not scheme, we do.

True love does not cheat, we do.

So with smiles on our faces and sweet words on our tongue,

We serve this false love on a gilded platter to the ones we hold dear.

Never realizing that this is a poor substitute for happiness.

Everything I can't seem to say...

Where should I start?

I miss you, or I miss who you used to be, or I miss what could have been.
How's life? Are you having fun? Tell me about everything you've seen, everything you've done, everywhere you've been.
Do you get homesick? Do you miss your friends? Your family? Me?
Why don't we talk? Who should make the first move? Why are we so stubborn?
I miss the conversations we used to have. The ones where I looked into your eyes and watched your mouth move. The ones where I told you everything.
Your forgetful, controlling, awful. But I could look past all of that if you told me I was important to you.
Let's play the Blame Game, Nevermind we'll both lose.
Let's be children, I'll kick, you scream, throw tantrums on the floor.
Let's be lovers, kiss & tell, hold each other till we don't exist.
Pick a moment, ask the question, I'll say I love you, or I hate you.
My heart aches, or I feel nothing. Everyday you cross my mind, or I forget about you completely.
Would you like me to make it easy? You know I'd do anything for you.
Even now, even with the hatred and the bitterness, I'd still do anything for you...

One More Night (One Night Stand Series: Part II)

Disclaimer: This is not my poem, it's a part of a series from a collaboration with my fav cousin! Working on part three now!

How was it wrong? because now you feel right.
The nectar of your tongue, on that flower of a night.
My Expectations, Stipulations, Reservations, our Altercations
I surrendered to the dark side of my mind.
My Heart like Jericho, and you One Joshua
Marched with power and overtook my standards
NO pause, NO stop, and the compromise came... As did I.
And in that small moment
The lies in your eyes became truth,
And the touch of your skin, stopped me from seeing through you
This has to be wrong, but you feel so right,
let me stay just one more night.

One Night Stand

Your smile, your style, they leave me hypnotized,
But it's the lies behind your eyes that give rise to the PAUSE.
The STOP.
The Point Blank Period, that says I will not compromise.
My standards like sentries surround my heart,
Protect me from the war your hands wage as they pull me close,
defying and flying above my expectations,
my stipulations,
my reservations,
our altercations,
and show me that while someone so wrong can never be right,
they can always be good for the night.

Je Rêve de Toi

J’ai besoin de toi.

Vous parlez à mon cœur.

J’aime comment vous vous sentirez.

Vous me rapprochez.

Dis-moi tout.

Ne rien dire.

Vous vous couchez avec moi milieu des étoiles.

Je souhaite cela allait durer éternellement,

Mais ces doux moments ne durent jamais.

Bise-moi avant vous quittez,

Avant je me réveille.

I Dream of You

I need you.

You speak to my heart.

I love how you feel.

Come closer to me.

Tell me everything.

Say nothing.

You lie with me among the stars.

I wish that this would last forever,

But such sweet moments never last.

Kiss me before you leave,

Before I wake.

Fall for your type, finished

For some odd reason there's always a little of your ex in your next... just sucks when it's the same thing you hate in both of them.

NEXT

Fall for Your Type

I just pray that you don’t let me down right now, it’s too late, I’m already yours.

You just gotta promise me hearts won’t break and end up like before…

I swear I always fall for your type.

Tell me why I always fall your type.

I just can’t explain it at all.

I believe in people like you.

You never get to choose, that’s life.

You do all you can to hold back and it doesn’t work.

You throw up wall after wall, you fight, you lie to yourself.

I knew the truth the moment it happened. You had me.

But I didn’t want you to,

You’re so perfectly flawed;

So perfectly wrong for me,

But that’s what I love most.

I love that I should hate you.

I love that you think you know everything.

I love that you think I’m immature and dumb.

I love how you have no control over yourself.

I have a new appreciation for moths in a flame.

I watched myself get closer to you. I knew the risk.

I knew the end of our story before it started.

I can’t even say it took me by surprise.

I never want to see you again, and I won’t.

You’re leaving and taking a part of my soul with you.

I’m clutching at it, trying to hold on, but its water in my hands.

The more I try the faster it leaves. I hate this feeling.

There’s a hole where the piece belongs.

It’ll heal, eventually, with time and distance.

 But I’ll always know where it was, and who has it.

EX

Fall for your type part II

Trying to convince myself I found one

Making the mistake I never learned from…

I swear I always fall for your type.

Tell me why I always fall your type.

I just can’t explain it at all.

I believe in people like you.

How did I get here…again?

How can he be so alike? How could I not see it?

Consciously I ran from you, subconsciously I fell into you.

Sitting in the same place, looking at the same face,

Making the same mistake.

I gave everything to you, he’s getting it because he is you.

A carbon copy that stole my soul,

A clone destroying my defenses,

A recurring nightmare tearing me to pieces.

Two movies with the same ending.

One heart rebreaking.

You still have me; I can’t help it.

I’m floating in my love for you, but drowning in your apathy.

I need you to breathe and you’re holding me under.

Your fingers on my throat, you feel my pulse slow.

What if I let go? Let my soul float into yours,

We can melt and meld and become as it should be, as it could be, as I want it to be.

I can’t hold it anymore; I draw in deep and pull you to the center of my being.

Untitled... couldn't think of anything.

I’m smiling.

I’m laughing.

I’m talking.

My heart is breaking.

I’m singing.

I’m dancing.

I’m working.

My heart is breaking.

I’m caring.

I’m needing.

I’m loving.

My heart is breaking.

I’m wanting.

I’m waiting.

I’m missing.

My heart is breaking.

I’m crying.

I’m hurting.

I’m dying.

My heart is breaking.

Soul-tied

"A Soul Tie is when you create a connection or share yourself with someone, you give them a piece of your soul and your spirit and they give you a piece of theirs. It becomes a strong almost unbreakable bond that can hold you trapped until you decide to let it go." Prof. Hazel Edny

It’s pulling me, our tether, drawing me to you.

I want to leave, but I don’t want to be free.

You haunt every dream, Freud says it’s my subconscious.

Are you what my mind wants? No, you’re what my soul craves.

You’re like my breath, constantly reminding me to live.

You’re like my heart, silently continuing my existence.

I can fight my wants, but I can’t resist my desires.

I can suppress my thoughts, but I can’t restrict my feelings.

Who knew that one moment could change everything?

Whose fault was it? Who can I blame? Who should I hate?

In seconds you took from me, in a blink you gave to me.

It was nothing. How can so little mean so much, totally capture me?

Only a bit longer til’ I’m free. Til’ I can chalk it up to a slip in sanity.

Out of site out of mind. You’ll be gone and the cord will wither and die.

It will hurt, it already does, but I can do it.

 I can go on as if nothing happened.

Fall for Your Type

I swear I always fall for your type.

Tell me why I always fall your type.

I just can’t explain it at all.

I believe in people like you.

You never get to choose, that’s life.

You do all you can to hold back and it doesn’t work.

You throw up wall after wall, you fight, you lie to yourself.

I knew the truth the moment it happened. You had me.

But I didn’t want you to,

You’re so perfectly flawed;

So perfectly wrong for me,

But that’s what I love most.

I love that I should hate you.

I love that you think you know everything.

I love that you think I’m immature and dumb.

I love how you have no control over yourself.

I have a new appreciation for moths in a flame.

I watched myself get closer to you. I knew the risk.

I knew the end of our story before it started.

I can’t even say it took me by surprise.

I never want to see you again, and I won’t.

You’re leaving and taking a part of my soul with you.

I’m clutching at it, trying to hold on, but its water in my hands.

The more I try the faster it leaves. I hate this feeling.

There’s a hole where the piece belongs.

It’ll heal, eventually, with time and distance.

 But I’ll always know where it was, and who has it.

Why I Write.

I‘m trapped in my mind,

A padded cell that I share with my emotions.

Hell, they seem as crazy as I am…

Happiness is crying, and Sadness is laughing,

Anger is apologizing to the mistakes that keep crowding in,

Anxiety and worry huddle together like twins in a corner.

Ambition reaches for success, but she is always out of reach.

I move over to make room for my heart.

It’s an old companion, it comes and goes.

When it loses control, they put it in here.

It’s spinning around the room screaming,

Hurling its’ dark desires and relentless needs

My mind can’t hold it; the walls burst.

They all escape and flee the psych ward that is my mind.

I have to think quickly, they can’t make it to the outside.

I force them to detour, they rage down my arms.

My hands shake as they storm through.

They race from my fingertips onto my keyboard.

I trap them in a poem and free myself.

Inspired by Say Yes, Floetry

In my dreams we’ve made love a hundred times

Had a thousand orgasms in a million places

Said nothing and felt everything

Disappeared into each others’ arms

 Reappeared as the same being

Burned and drowned, floated and sank.

Created, destroyed, made and remade

We invented worlds and demolished galaxies

Your form makes me quiver.

 Your smile keeps me still.

Your touch steals my gravity.

Your kiss makes me fly.

In my mind I’ve had you, been you, loved you.

Undressed and caressed, always impressed

My thoughts delve deep into your skin

Your soul floats on the surface of my consciousness.

My eyes embrace the lies that are your clothes

And drink the truth that is your body.

My hands search the secrets of your flesh

Your lips find the hidden desire of mine.

Face to face, nothing left,

All you have to do is say yes.